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so, what do people think of the new layout? i got bored of the other one. i'm beggining to doubt my ability to keep up with japanese. it's only day three, and i feel like i'm in over my head.

can't wait until it gets colder. i hate this kind of heat, where you can barely go outside.

you know, i don't know what's wrong with me. i feel so depressed, like i did back in 2003, when i had all those minor breakdowns and was hurting myself. yeah, how many people knew that i was suicidal back then? yeah, i knew that if I just treated my bi-polar with drugs it would come back, but the psychatrist was absolutely no help. they never see how bad it is inside. jeez, i'm not really happy today, am i? sorry about all this.

i really don't know what it is. maybe it's the fact that i haven't met too many people with similiar interests to me, and i had hoped i would meet some. i mean it's a campus of fucking 40,000 people. there have got to be more then two who like sci-fi/fantasy/anime and a whole lot with similiar music interests (you know who i mean). i just don't know where to go and meet them. and i HATE that, the not knowing.

by. i'll stop interrupting your lives with my random crap, self-bashing, and depressed thoughts.

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Gail dont be sad. For everyone you did meet there is another still to meet. Dont wory too much about it. I dont know too many people on my floor as well. But meeting people in a snap in like the first week or two... or three isnt easy. The best friends I made last year I didnt meet until like a month or month and a half into the year. Dont worry. Plus you have all your friends from everywhere else to cheer you up.