Just another fuckup

God did this semester suck. ILS just screwed me over so damn bad. I did okay in everything else, but that class just ruined me. I'm going to have to work my ass off next semester to make up for it.

And you know, I know my parents are going to be disappointed in me. Cause they always expected me to do so well, and I just can't. I'm just not that smart. I'm just the kid that has to work their ass off to get B's, and I still have no idea what I want to do with my life. I keep putting off officially declaring a major because I have NO FUCKING CLUE what I want to do.

And even though my mom fucked up for a few years, and my dad never got beyond an associate degree, I still feel like they're going to hate me for failing a class. Even though they both did the same, and I really tried, everything just got turned around.

I hate this. I feel like a waste of money, and if I just turn around and say that all I want is to be a paralegal or a nurse that they'll be so disappointed with me. That I'll keep getting pushed into directions that I don't want simply because my parents think that I should want more.

I feel so in over my head. I mean, how the hell do I tell them this? I'm just so worked up over everything that it's making me sick.